Today I read a really stupid article, and I thought it was going to be great. What a let down.

Tomorrow I have a meeting with my thesis advisor.

It's nine-thirty at night.

I'm exhausted.

I want to go for a run.

I ate too much today.

And I have no idea what I'm going to say because I'm so tired.

WORST POSSIBLE DAY EVER TO HAVE A THESIS MEETING=TOMORROW.

Thank you, thank you.

Now going to cram for thesis meeting.

Sigh. =)

This week I

e-mailed my thesis advisor
read a bunch of articles (I don't remember how many)


Of the current research material left to read I have

five articles
8 books (pieces)
6-8 books chapters I photocopied, maybe three of which I'll use.


Then go photocopy some more articles (about 25-35, I think), and then I get about three or four more books, and then I find some theses in the library, and then that's it. Pretty much half way there.

Today I

finished 2/3rds of 2 Phd applications
read 2 articles
flipped through a book I should really be reading
tore my hair out looking for contact info on the GRE website to get my scores again
ate pudding.


The last was less fulfulling than you would think.

And I really should have made it 2/3rds through ALL my PhD applications tonight.I still have 2 or so more to do. I think I'm dropping SLU as a choice. I was gonna, but no real Augustine scholars there. Instead, the list looks like:

Norte Dame (just because)
Villinova (Without them, no Augustinian Studies journal)
KU Leuven (Because I have very good reasons for not wanting to move, like, if I can, the funding is great and so are the people...generally speaking)
Vanderbilt (Which would be a change of major, but a sweet, sweet program, and a REALLY great promoter, I think. Happiness ensues.)

So, that looks like the final list. (Aka. I just don't have the effort to do more, and as it is, I'm going to have to ask for people to write me four reference letters as is. That's stupid. But I have three references, I think.)


Which reminds me, I need to make a small document stating how great I am and what I have been doing this past year and blah blah blah. Geez, boredom. I hate this stuff. But, as long as I get in somewhere and there is money included, sounds alright to me.

I had to cancel a meeting with my thesis supervisor because my boss signed me up for working all day in Brussels. In other words, I'm starting to let other things affect my thesis.

This really wears me out. I REALLY want to be doing nothing else but working on my thesis. But, I also need to apply for PhDs. I don't know what to do with myself sometimes, honestly.

Theatre is going alright, although I don't know where I'm going to find the time to do anything other than write a play, work, go to class, read for my thesis. I think it's all going to be the same as when I lived in Canada. It's strange, because now that I feel like I have my life in Canada back. I can't decide if I like it or if it's unhealthy. I'm not sure, but it's certainly culturally against the grain, I'd say.

Today

I started 3 Phd Applications

Man, I hate it. It's so many numbers and I can never keep track of anything. The amount of time I am going to have to spend to finish these is painful. I'm really exhausted, so I don't think I'll get to anything else on my list, not even articles, maybe just some letters I've been meaning to send. A couple things here and there. But I work tomorrow at 9am. Eh heh. Sigh. In Liege.

But I think I'll work on a couple things artistic this weekend. Just for me. To make me feel better. Especially since I feel sick. =)

Today I


read 5 articles, 3 of which were useless.

Yay.

=)

I was supposed to do PhD stuff, but between being stupid in random ways, and being tired and kinda sick, and needing nap every two minutes, there just wasn't time. It's killer, really it is. But since I don't work tomorrow, I will do them then.

Today I read

5 articles

wrote up my final draft of my proposed thesis

Sent my thesis advisor an ultimatum to meet with me next week

included the attachement for him to read. (Le stress.)


So, yes, now I'm making him read things that he probably thinks are useless. I'm sure it' s a waste of his time, but my grads studies reference books says that an outline really helps to clear up any big misunderstandings at the start of the thesis, so it seemed like a good idea at the time. I'm of the opinion that no matter what I say, I'm not sure I'll impress him. On the bright side, I had a reason to be suspicious of my writing...I spelled 'office hours' as 'offive hours' in my e-mail to him. I nearly died because I almost DIDN'T spell-check it before I sent it.


I honestly don't know how grad students survived before spell checking. I'm assuming they had real brains. I know mine's fake.

In other news, I'm going to bed. I'm so tired it hurts. Again.

Yesterday I

Read some...stuff....mostly grad school PhD stuff. I e-mailed about 5 people about doing a possible PhD with them before I realized I had made a critical mistake of leaving out a 'that' at some point in one of my e-mails. On the bright side, it wasn't a GLARING error, and really, I did look it over several times quickly to scan for errors. It's much better that I thought it would be as an e-mail, really. Also, three people have already replied!!!!!!! But I have no idea what they said yet. I don't really want to look, but then I do. I swear, it's like wondering if there is a boogey-man in your closet. I probably shouldn't talk about closests...ok, similie over. And I just found out what a pataphor is. Definitely not a pataphysician.

OK. Back to writing e-mails for Janus Theatre.

Today I read

3 articles

I would have read a 4th but I forgot half of it at home and brought scrap paper instead
Lame.

Also, I have books majorly overdue.


Also lame.

Today I

Photocopied articles, many of them that were photocopied badly the first time, about 9 of them, and I read

The Myth of Augustine Being a Great Sinner
A Response article on O'Connell's Work on Augustine's Early Theory of Mankind.

Titles sort of mixed up, don't remember them, don't want to open a document or search the web for a title.

Oh, and I typed up four pages of biblo, although it's not hard, since most of it is from the same journal. Crazy. I feel silly about that, but I guess I can't help it if no one wants to write about my guy. That's academics for you...it's all in a central field, and then that's all. =P

Tough stuff. Especially when it's so easy to find the bib info on the web, since the journal that I'm using publishes all their info on the web in pretty much copy + paster-able quality so that I can do all the biblio really quickly. It almost feels like cheating...except that I know that I'm saving time that is often wasted on details like this.

I'm falling asleep at the computer again. Time for bed, yes?