Today I wrote 7-8 pages, read five or six articles, and read Book One of On Free Will very. Very. Carefully. Again. This is driving me crazy. Every time I think I understand all the passages, I look again, and think, "I don't get it. Why did I think I got it?" So, the bit on lust is done, and I can get into the meat of the Fall, which will be about 15 pages, I think, and then some small pieces on order and on why all Augustine's theories don't work, a bit on City of God, stuff like that, then a conclusion, then my intro, which is what I'm really looking forward to writing. It will be smashing.

Since so far, it's all not exactly 'ground-breaking,' which makes me think it's not that great.

Sigh. Oh well, that's for my thesis advisor to say, not me. =) I'm ok, and everything will be fine. We'll just have to wait and sigh. Uh, I mean see! Wait and see!

Freudian slip.

I wrote a page in one chapter, a sentence and a reference in another.

I'm so tired I just can't think, and I'm just so stressed right now because of everything that I need sleep all the time, I think. Sigh.

Today I

wrote 2 pages, starting a new chapter bit, reorganized part of my table of contents, and keeping going. I'm doing everything in order, not in the way my promoter said, but it just sort of turned out this way. The meat is yet to come, which is part of why this is taking so long. Part of why it took so long today is because I had the question, "What is death for Augustine?" on my mind basically the entire evening, and no one I had read had an answer really, but I found it by putting a couple things together.

I revised a page and a bit, technically I wrote 3 pages today, but it ended up being one page of something understandable, rather than three pages of drivel. I'm so tired that I don't think I can do much more today, I know I need rest, but I'll just keep plugging...I could really use a break, but I just I'll just be burnt out after grad, and then everything will be fine. Hopefully. I don't see the end of the tunnel right now, and it's annoying me, but I think it's because I didn't work on my thesis yesterday, and it's been a couple days since I last did, and I just need more time that's really fixed, helps me think. But because of the way work is, I never set aside the time because I can't...and also my friends are pretty erratic lately, so it's been all up and down and everywhere with them.

OK, maybe I'll write some more later. I think I'm going to e-mail Ralph some pictures I told myself I would e-mail him.

2 pages, still on the chapter on desire. I need to get moving on this thing, this is taking too long, but I just don't seem to have enough time anymore. I'm exhausted all the time, and I'm on a happy and heavy road to burn out at this rate. On the bright side, once the first draft is finished, and edited, I can be quite satisfied, and I then have a lot of time for revision...and by a lot, I mean...maybe two weeks. However, I will try and finish this before the end of February, which is looking possible as long as I don't lose my momentum, which I don't think I will. When I'm on the edge I do my best stuff.

re-read an article. Meant to read 2, but fell asleep on the train instead.

Reorganized table of contents a bit

2 1/2 pages

re-read some articles

organized my articles

Cleaned my bookshelf and stuff as a side-effect of all of this. =)

Yesterday

A very rough table of contents
revising some articles and readings


Today

re-reading book one of "De Libero Arbitrio" very, very carefully (which made my head hurt)
and
2 pages. More would probably follow, but now I go to dinner with the people I work with. Hopefully will not end in bloodshed.

Kidding.